Realization

Before I had kids I used to dream about and think I would be a great stay at home mom. Then real life happened and we both work full time, albeit with very flexible jobs. I always had alot of guilt which is normal I know but I think it also helped me be more attentive and more involved the hours we had together each day. Though I always felt working part time would be a great balance.

So last week we were on vacation, the week before I had my normal day off (along with a couple shortened days) and this week I was off today to go on field trip with the boys to the zoo.
I have come to the realization, that I don't think I was ever really cut out to stay home full time. Maybe I am thinking this now, because the boys are so active and close in age, maybe I am just out of shape? I am beat, physically and mentally. I have to say it was actually nice to be at work on Monday for the break.

And let me just say God Bless the preschool teachers, they are definitely high up in the ranks of the underpaid professions! I don't know how they do it, their patience is amazing! (I guess I have also realized I probably wouldn't have been a good teacher, which was another profession I had considered).

So while I did have a blast with the boys all last week and the field trip was alot of fun, I can safely say I am happy they are sleeping peacefully and I am right behind them. My mind and body need to recuperate!