Isn't it Ironic?

Since being diagnosed with endometriosis 8 years ago, I knew eventually I would be looking at a more permanent treatment option. I have tried every medication (including a clinical trial), many surgeries, and alternative treatments. Everything works for awhile and then my symptoms rear their ugly head again.
Since our family is complete and we had no desire to ever try to get pregnant, I focused on just dealing with my pain. I had a good run for a little over a year, but the past six months I pretty much have been taking anti-inflammatories daily. I knew I was risking GI issues, so it was time to discuss the H word (hysterectomy). After several consults and discussions, I made my decision.

It is finally scheduled for May 12th, yes the day after Mother's Day. Kind of ironic to me that all I will be having removed was supposed to make me a mother, but didn't. Well I guess in a round about way, they did. They failed and we now have our two awesome boys and experienced the journey of a lifetime, so I guess I should really thank them for it. I have fondly named these parts, "the bitches". Seemed like a fun name for the group. I know this is the right decision as this is definitely affecting my quality of life and I have lots of worries of my increased risks of ovarian cancer as well. But it was definitely a tough decision to make.

I have definitely been going thru a wide range of emotions. I am looking forward to getting it over with and being able to hopefully live each day pain free. But I am also sad at losing part of what makes you a woman? I also am scared, scared at being young and going on HRT, scared of surgery and all the what ifs.
Thankfully I will be undergoing this laproscopically using the Da Vinci system (it is actually pretty cool). This makes my recovery time significantly shorter ( 2 weeks is all I will be out of work), altho I have been forewarned that it could take awhile to feel back to normal in terms of energy and strength. But I am optomistic.

So hopefully this all goes smoothly and by the end of the summer I will be a new and improved woman!!
I will try to enjoy my last month with the "bitches" and say my good byes!